I attended a meditation retreat and achieved the deepest most energizing meditation I’ve ever been in.  I set the intention of being at peace and not scattered.  I’ve also been working on releasing my craving for marriage.

The next morning I had a nightmare about other men which led to several insights:
I felt alone and vulnerable in the dream.  I realized upon awaking and reflecting on the dream that I blamed my 1st husband for not protecting me, not taking care of me, and not valuing me...